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DAY 23 Exhaustion. ...

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DAY 23 Exhaustion. It's what's for dinner! For the 23rd day of the experiment, I'm going to ramble (unlike all the other days.) I'm thinking of this as a "typed" free-write! So.... What's on my mind? The usual: money troubles, stupid cats always bugging me when I'm trying to work, never feeling like I get enough sleep - but also having serious trouble GETTING to sleep (even with all those pills I'm supposed to take), terror and sickness and legacy and horror... You know... MONDAY. That's what I've been thinking about lately. We made the decision to run, head-long, into the hordes of hell, thinking (WHY NOT?), but forgetting how problematic life can be when you don't follow society's rules. If you burn the bridges, you gotta swim. At the VERY LEAST, I did get some artwork drawn today. I need to spend some time doing some photographing... OR maybe I should sit and plink on my phone until I get all of the photographed pieces on there cropped and colored and digitally tweaked. Hanging with the baby most of the day don't leave much EXTRA time (or energy) for creativity, though - beyond the hours of coloring we do each day. [For the few folks who are just joining the journey, I am a full time grandpa, and I babysit my three-year-old granddaughter so her parents can work. Daycare costs are CRIMINAL, so I figure, if anybody in this family should act like a criminal, it's me!] Might need to up my blood-pressure medication, though... And my anxiety pills, and my other pills... We'll see in a few weeks. I have a check-up scheduled just after Valentine's Day. (TERROR. I am absolutely PHOBIC of medical shit.) Mariah (my loving wife and connection to the world OUT THERE) made some chocolate chip MENTAL HEALTH cookies... Shit's been unfun lately. (She has a funeral to go to tomorrow... I'm PHOBIC about public events, like funerals, so I'm not going... I probably should, though...) It's all terrifying for me... HA! Whatever. Still alive. Still making stuff. Still typing. It ain't GAME OVER, yet! The EXPERIMENT continues!!! Later! ---Richard F. Yates (Holy Fool)

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