Tezos

RELIEF

Creator

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Description

- visualizing emotions - 4000x4000px The story of this artwork: About 8 years ago my mom and I became colleagues. Once we attended to a small, carnival company party together. My mom is a restrained woman, doesn't like social gatherings for longer than 2 hours, drinks one glass of something, she doesn't smoke, doesn't talk to strangers and she does NOT dance. But this time was different. Those days I was using substances from time to time so I took some with me to the party and put it in my drink to be quick and not to be suspicious being on the toilet too much. My mom accompanied me smoking outside. So we put our glasses on the table, took our jackets on, grabbed our drinks (we were both having a rum cola) and chit-chat outside. After an hour I was still not feeling the power of my drink so I just put more in it. Another smoking session, another drink refill, and another, and another again. By this time it's midnight and I'm still not feeling anything! I look around to spot mom and that's when reality hit me hard. She was dancing. With a stranger. She had plenty of drinks. She was enjoying herself like never before. FUCK! MY MOM IS HIGH AS A KITE AND I DID THAT TO HER! Omg omg what should I do?! - Mom, are you okay? We should go home, it's getting late. - HOOOME?? Are you crazy?? I'm having a great time, I don't want to go home!! - If you say so... We left the party around 3am. The next day she has expreienced her worst hungover ever. She thought she was getting sick, shivering, having no appetite. I made her a nice soup and wrapped her in a soft blanket. The guilt and shame I was feeling is indecribabIe! I carried this secret all these years until this June, when she visited me in The Netherlands. We were drinking wine on a terrace and I thought, this has to come out here and now! When I told her about it, she wasn't mad at all! She said: - You know normally I don't remember these parties because they aren't any special but I remember this party very well, because I had such a great time like never before! I thought it was because you were there with me! - Well, technically it is true but I accidentally got you high and I'm SO SORRY ever since, and I didn't have the courage to tell you! - You know what? Maybe sometime you should do it again and tell me about it later. :)) - Are you serious? You aren't mad at me for real? - No, I'm absolutely not! It was a great experience but I would be scared if I would know that something is about to happen. This way was perfect! - Wow mom, this is SUCH A RELIEF!! I love you! - I love you too stupid kid!