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Description

I turned 31 today. Contrary to what everyone says that "life is short", life is very slow for me. It's not like: my life is over in the blink and everything rushes to the end very quickly. No ! For me, passing all these seconds was as difficult as walking in a swamp of semi-dry mud. Everything has been so long that I don't remember anything in this long span; no memories, no faces, no places, no names, etc. I don't remember anything. Usually when they ask me how old are you? In the answer, for example, I say 300 years or 1700 years. from the point of view of others, this is a meaningless joke, but for me, it is a desperate attempt to make the other party understand my feelings about the passing of my life. I have spent my whole life trying to just pass the time. Sometimes I even sleep for a few days to be just a little ahead; Either I cling to absurd excuses all day long so that I don't understand how the night happened, or I make myself so involved in seemingly important decisions that I can burn a bunch of days and move on. When I was 18 years old, I promised myself that I would kill myself on my 40th birthday. I felt tired enough from this vast expanse that every second I was as tired as a year. Anyone who was in my place would have made this decision and act quickly! but I am not a person who can commit suicide with deppression, anger, excitement or sadness! I have put this to the test many times; but I know that I am a "acting according to the plan" person, and making a promise like this, and telling it to all the people and constantly thinking about it, can concentrate all my power to keep my word and commit to this in time; without fear or doubt; exactly as planned... these 40 years of life are too much for me, as time is slow and imperceptible like the movement of the earth's crust. Fortunately, there are 9 years left until that day. Honestly every year when my birthday comes, I am happier to say that I was able to burn another 365 days. Not in the blink of an eye, but with the difficulty of moving a snail in the middle of a road with no end in sight, I go through the days one by one and keep myself entertained with a thousand kinds of meaningless games so that the passing of these seconds does not deter me from my decision. and soon it will bring me to a turning point where I will finally end this timeless nightmare.

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