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living in the woods changed my perspective on everything. before going there my fears were social, fear of rumours, intrigue, opinions. but I projected myself in such a large geographical distance, that I ended up disconnecting myself from these fears, like a radio that changes frequencies. my fears became real dangers like a poisonous snake, a wild boar, bizarre insects, scorpions and spiders. with the passage of time I got used to and became fond of most of these animals. living far away from every other human being, it also made me vulnerable. who could hear me if I screamed for help? nobody. so we search to adopt large dogs to protect us. kira and black (two shepherds) live free and are much healthier since they arrived from the city, as before the two had atrophied hind legs and a crooked posture. I identify with them, I started to sleep well, dream, wake up well with the birds singing. but wildlife is not just peace, I've witnessed fights between kira and another dog bigger than her, in which they almost killed themselves, and as much as I screamed and threw branches and stones, nothing made them stop. my dog was hospitalized twice so I thought we would lose her, but she is fine today, the scars are left. I have already witnessed a rattlesnake next to my house, my dogs did not know how to deal with it and barked very close to it, I was terrified and my companion killed the snake, because there was nothing else that could be done at that time of night. Recently one of Kira's puppies appeared bloody and cut, we thought it was a fight with other dogs, but a day later I saw a coati corpse behind my house, I believe the fight was with him. I had never seen a coati in person, he was big and had a beautiful coat. he was in one piece, but with a cut on his leg, which leads me to think that he bled to death. my companion and I had to deal with the coati's body before it started to decompose, he grabbed it by the tail while I was holding a huge garbage bag, the smell was unbearable, I had to carry the bag away from the house. death has another connotation in this context, I have deep respect for all animals and forest spirits. I collect feathers, stones, bones. I recently tried to mummify a beautiful bird that I found dead on the track. death doesn't scare me or attract me, it's just the cycle of life. when i went home i found kira gnawing this skull, i asked she gave it to me. I don't know what animal this skull is, it could be the coati but it could be other dogs that died there a long time ago. I found it funny, because cats always present their owners with geckos, or cockroaches, while my dogs bring me things that make me see them as killing machines, while they are extremely affectionate and friendly. life is not a dichotomy of good and evil, things are extremely complex and fractal.